Feeling guilty

Edita made me feel guilty that I haven't journaled my pregnancy and been better at recording Mr. Meh's achievements. Now that she's pregnant, she's apparently kept a detailed journal of her thoughts, etc....I tried but couldn't. I have a few emails I sent to people at the beginning of the pregnancy with wacky thoughts etc...and I guess since the pregnancy wasn't that eventful I didn't feel compelled to keep a journal. (Or it was too eventful and I was too tired to keep one).

However, I'll gather the few scattered entries I have and put them on this blog so they are all in one place.

I'm also now feeling guilty for not doing a better job of updating this blog, ie keeping a good track of Mr. Meh's milestones and my general thoughts about pregnancy, motherhood, etc....Something about always wanting to do that as the last thing in the evening...basically it never gets done. (After all I'm a pro at procrastination).

It's funny because when Mr. Meh got his first tooth, rolled over, crawled....I couldn've sworn I wouuld remember that forever. But already when people ask me (moms with younger infants looking for advice) when did Ivan do this or that, I no longer recall the precisely. I can't recall when did his sleeping patterns change -- I never wrote it down -- I thought it would be so organic and so memorable, but it's not.

For some things (such as the first roll over or first crawl) I could try to reconstruct the time based on photos --- I remember what was he able to do when certain photos were taken....but still.

I guess no point in crying over something I can't change. But I can try to do a better job from now on.....