End of an era

...happened earlier this evening when I unsubscribed myself from Weight Watchers Online. I don't know why I'm upset about it. Maybe it the fear of gaining the weight back. Maybe it's just the fact that I don't like to let go of things, finalize things, make decisions that have no return option (in this case, it's not like I can't re-subscribe, so I don't know what the problem is).

I joined WW last summer, July 1, to be exact after I saw coworker who had a baby two weeks before I did and was skinny as a toothpick. Much skinnier that she had been for as long as I had known her (and to this day, she's kept the weight off). And at that point I still had 15lbs pregnancy to loose and well as another 10lbs of pre-pregnancy "I just got fat" weight. Well, I'll lost most of that weight. I fit into my old clothes that I couldn't fit into a few months before I got pregnant.

So in other words, I feel like I've accomplished my goal (well most of it). I should feel victorious. Last spring/summer (maybe some four months after I delivered) I remember feeling really down and hopeless -- I wasn't loosing the weight and loosing 20 lbs seemed like an impossible task. I even asked women for advice on the DC Urban Mom message board. They advised to hang in there and some actually suggested to try WWs.

On Monday, when I return to work, I'll rejoin the work gym to start working out regularly and try to get rid of the big butt, cellulite, back fat and the post-baby giggly stomach that still remain. And those are working out fixes, not so much weight loss fixes.

I must say that for $16/month, WW was amazing. I have been sounding like a walking promo for them, I've liked it so much. But it really works. It was really easy to keep track of the points and record what I ate. (In the pre-computer era, when people relied on those charts and what-nots, it would've been a nightmare). And I got to eat what I usually would it (with minor modifications) so it's really a sustainable weight loss program. And the fact that everyone has been commenting how great I look, ie the weight loss is noticable, has just been the icing on the cake.